Introduction

Did you find me on Instagram, Facebook or simply on this website?

Do you think that you know who I am?

I am here to tell you that no matter who you may think I am, is not who I truly am, you can not possibly know who I am because I myself am still discovering my true self.

What I can do is tell you my story so far. I can tell you why I am here and how I want my journey to help you explore yours.

I could write pages about my humble infancy, my Mothers struggles and our rags to riches story. I could tell you how it felt having it all and suddenly having it all lost due to a clients bad decisions, how that lesson taught me how to be stronger and more grateful in life, but I don't want to bore you with details.

What I do want to tell you is what led me to this new phase of life. About my awakening and my drive to find myself and how journalling has helped me, and who knows perhaps I can help you do the same.

I have worked most of my adult life in male dominated industry, I have walked with the dinosaurs and watched some of them fall by the wayside and others continue their path of disrespect for all that the females in their team can bring to the table. I am a mother, a daughter and a sister, I also find myself in the realms of grand-parenthood, all of these roles created my invisibility but they do not define me.

13th March 2002 the night before my 30th birthday, my first awakening. I already had three beautiful daughters, a great marriage life was good but suddenly I realized that I was almost 30 and had not yet achieved anything in my life. At least that was my version. I was so terrified that my life had passed me by, that the only thing I could do was to live my life through my children. I felt invisible, like my life was over. The thought of my pending birthday had me in tears.

Fast forward 13th March 2012 almost 40 and the true awakening. Not quite as traumatic as the previous decade and through reading and getting a taste of personal growth, I suddenly realized that I could not settle for the invisible life, that my life was far from over, that if I wanted something different I had to go find it for myself. I did not want to be only the wife, daughter, sister, mother, I was all of those things but I wanted my own identity back.

13th March 2022 and here we are. My journey has taken me down many paths. I have met many truly inspirational people along this pathway. My journey is far from over, however it is challenging and every fork in the road leads to more searching, more surprises and more adventures.

my map on this journey is my journal. It helps me to process thoughts, feelings and emotions, it directs me through my own thought process to the next step. It is my guide through the jungle of indecision. When self sabotage sets in, my journal helps me to dissect my thoughts. When I'm high on the excitement of a new goal it keeps me grounded. I no longer label it as journalling for me it is journeying. The process of documenting my life's journey.

The chapters become a guide book of where I have been and where I intend to go next.

If this sounds like an adventure you would like to explore, hold on tight, lets explore it together.

xx Lei

IT'S BEAUTIFUL WHEN SOMEONE CAN ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM, INSTEAD OF TRYING TO MAKE ME WHAT THEY WANT ME TO BE. - Positive outlooks